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Drowning

Journal Entry: Thu Jul 17, 2008, 1:11 PM
I'm going to be 18 in less than a week... I should be happy right? Then why aren't I?
I can't think straight anymore. My thoughts jump from optimism to complete depression. I'm angry at everything and everyone and I just feel so alone. The only times I don't feel like this is when I'm with Michael and talking with my sister but when I'm on my own or with anyone else, all I can think about is the river and jumping.
I'm going to be 18... yet I've gotten no where. I made a promise to myself that I would be published by now and yet I'm not. I should be leaving for school on the 23rd and yet I'm not. I don't have a job.
I'm expecting a letter from the last man I ever wanted to talk to... so that I can hear out an apology from a man I don't feel I can ever forgive.
I'm having nightmares on a nightly basis and I'm just so tired.
Caleb's birthday is on the 19th and I can't handle hearing people cry anymore.
And now Michael's moving. My only anchor will be an hour's drive away... and yet I have no licence. Thank God for phones.
You know, the funny thing about drowning is that the more you struggle to live, the more you fight to make it to the surface, the more water you suck in and the faster you die. But if you relax, you can float. lol. Idk, maybe I should have learned to swim. Yup, I can't. It's funny really. I have a fascination with water but I can't swim.
I feel like I'm drowning, suffocating, unable to find the surface myself.

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Art Waiting on me:
I'm working on it, ppl, for really.

:iconwolfspirit15: - 3 pieces
:iconmabak: 3 pieces
:iconxbiohazardxzombiex: - art trades

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  • Mood: Worried
  • Listening to: Forever - Papa Roach - on repeat
  • Reading: Poems- lots of poems
  • Watching: the months tick by

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  • Current Age: 18
  • Current Residence: This Town Turned City
  • Interests: Writing, Art, Music, friends and family, and spending time with my boyfriend
  • Favourite movie: Fried Green Tomatoes, What Dreams May Come
  • Favourite band or musician: Green Day, Evanescense
  • Favourite genre of music: Rock!
  • Favourite artist: N. Ayers
  • Favourite poet or writer: N. Ayers, M.A.E.U.
  • Favourite style of art: Graphite Pencil
  • MP3 player of choice: Sansa
  • Favourite game: Any writing game to sharpen my skills
  • Favourite cartoon character: Ralphie - Simpsons
  • Personal Quote: "When I'm left to my own devices, I go fucking insane"
  • Tools of the Trade: Pen, pencil, some paper and a full imagination

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*Tolkienmaster:iconTolkienmaster: Jul 23, 2008, 1:24:19 AM
many thanks for the :+fav: sweetie! :glomp:

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"I would like to know what really happens in a book when it is closed. Naturaly, there's only letters printed on paper inside, but, even though... something has to be going on, because a great story suddenly appears when I open it."
~Mulan209:iconMulan209: Jul 21, 2008, 8:05:39 PM
thanks for the fav :)
~czarnywilk:iconczarnywilk: Jul 13, 2008, 2:00:33 AM
Thank you for faving: [link]
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~ver00nika:iconver00nika: Jul 12, 2008, 3:55:23 PM
thank you for the fav :)

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Veronika :salute:
gallery [link]
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~MiyakoRei:iconMiyakoRei: Jul 9, 2008, 11:41:20 AM
:blowkiss:

Thanks so much for the favourite, I really appreciate it!

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Sunshine or thunder?
J.R. Ward
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*right-side-falls:iconright-side-falls: Jul 8, 2008, 10:00:27 AM
thank you for the :+fav:
I'm glad you like it

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Heaven knows it should be so easy.
~Mariamne-1484:iconMariamne-1484: Jul 7, 2008, 11:52:18 AM
Thanks for the :+fav:

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Really I don't like human nature unless all candied over with art.[link]
Virginia Woolf
*Tolkienmaster:iconTolkienmaster: Jul 4, 2008, 2:24:13 AM
thank you for adding 'Uncovered' to your favorites! :aww:

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"I would like to know what really happens in a book when it is closed. Naturaly, there's only letters printed on paper inside, but, even though... something has to be going on, because a great story suddenly appears when I open it."
~darkpiano7:icondarkpiano7: Jul 3, 2008, 4:34:08 PM
thanks for the fav!

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"Chicken tenders. Sweet sauce, all over my body."
-Dane Cook, The Burger King: [link]
~Vernaya19:iconVernaya19: Jun 27, 2008, 6:48:32 AM
Thanks for the :+fav: on Living Dead 2!

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Gallery --> [link]
~Mariamne-1484:iconMariamne-1484: Jun 26, 2008, 10:41:14 AM
Thank you :D

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Really I don't like human nature unless all candied over with art.[link]
Virginia Woolf
*Iardacil:iconIardacil: Jun 19, 2008, 12:45:39 PM
Hey, I wanted to thank you so much for :+fav: on my "Dreamer". I am so glad you like it.. :sun:

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Tread softly because you tread on my dreams
~lilcatty:iconlilcatty: Jun 15, 2008, 9:35:19 AM
thank u so much for the fav! :blowkiss:

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my gallery.
~ashantiwolfrider:iconashantiwolfrider: Jun 13, 2008, 6:03:52 PM
Thanks for the fave! :D

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The moon will shine with an eerie light
While a silver wolf runs through the darkest night

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~DeadsoulDreaming:iconDeadsoulDreaming: Jun 7, 2008, 11:51:37 AM
thank you sooooo much ^^

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dreams are not what you have when you sleep,
dreams are those, that don't let you sleep.
~Loftylady:iconLoftylady: Jun 6, 2008, 2:13:31 PM
Thank you for the fav!
~lmclawson:iconlmclawson: Jun 6, 2008, 1:28:34 PM
thank you :D

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"Don't you mess up mess up I don't wanna lose you
Wake up wake up this ain't just a thing that you
Give up give up don't you say that I'd be
Better off better off, sleepin' by myself and wonderin'
If I'm better off better off, with out you boy"
~Itsmerick:iconItsmerick: Jun 6, 2008, 1:12:17 PM
Thanks for the fav.

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My gallery:[link]
~SugarBreeze:iconSugarBreeze: Jun 6, 2008, 12:05:41 PM
Thankyou so much for the fav :D
You have a fantastic gallery!

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*Tolkienmaster:iconTolkienmaster: Jun 1, 2008, 8:56:38 AM
thank you for the fav sweetie :rose:

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"I would like to know what really happens in a book when it is closed. Naturaly, there's only letters printed on paper inside, but, even though... something has to be going on, because a great story suddenly appears when I open it."
=Sweet-Red-Cherry:iconSweet-Red-Cherry: May 31, 2008, 5:08:35 AM
Thanks so much :+fav: :ahoy:

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'cuse that's my bday =D

:camera: My protfolio :camera:
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*sauter:iconsauter: May 28, 2008, 1:05:59 AM
thanks very much for the fav on pregnant - 01
much apreciated

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all my pics on maxsauter.net => [link]
~kchiney:iconkchiney: May 26, 2008, 9:52:24 PM
Thanks for adding [link] to your favorites!!
`LuneBleu:iconLuneBleu: May 26, 2008, 4:25:36 PM
Thank you for the :+devwatch: :hug:

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